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A disease that tells me I have no disease
My story starts out back in 1978, when I went to AA for about 8 years and stayed sober, but I found it necessary to drink again, and stayed drunk for another 8
years, until December 3, 1999. My last drunk, and I pray each day it was, Dec. 3, 1999, I was so drunk that I ended up in a coma, in intensive care with a
blood alcohol level of 5.5%. ... read more...
By: Butch P.
My Recovery Story
Here is my recovery story: It took an additional two months for me to "get it right" after I left Valley Hope in February, 2007. My counselor, Dennis, gave
me all the tools I needed to succeed in my sobriety. However, I did not put those tools to work. I continued to drink immediately after my release from
Valley Hope. This eventually ...
By: Craig J
A miracle to be alive
My name is John E. and this is my story. Four months ago and 3 days I checked into Valley Hope (Cushing, OK) 60 pounds underweight, shaking with the DT's,
and unemployed since I was fired from my job due to alcohol abuse. I was physically very unhealthy and a miracle to be alive. Valley Hope trained me how to
fight the disease and live my ... read more...
By: John E
Dear Alcohol & Drugs
Dear Alcohol and Drugs,
How are you? Actually I take that back, as I could care less. If you are wondering how I am doing, I am doing much much better than I was when we were good
friends. Best friends you can even say, for several years . We were so close. We told each other everything, but you kept a few things from me. Things
I would ... read more...
A Craving - This Too Shall Pass!
Webster's defines a craving as "an intense or prolonged desire; yearning or appetite." This definition is quite accurate when describing the physical wanting
of a drug or a drink, but it lacks the mental part. The obsession that accompanies our desire to take a drink or use a drug. That moment of insanity when we
decide this time it won' t hurt ... read more...
By: Mandy M
Powerless & Unmanageable
Step One: powerless and unmanageable. The first part of step one is a conclusion I drew about myself after learning the facts about my disease as outlined in the
Big Book. After honestly relating my experiences drinking to the Doctor's Opinion and the first three chapters I concluded yes, I am an alcoholic. I have a
problem with ... read more...
By: Brad H.
Against all odds
There comes a time in every persons life when you're faced with two options You can go up or you can go down.Some really good friends and a strong faith have
given me a new hope that I thought was gone and could never be returned for a person like me.Life happens no matter what. God gave us the power to choose are
own destiny, we are the only ... read more...
By: Brad K.
Another Good Man Gone
My name is Tommy S. and I am an Alumni of Valley Hope in Grapevine Tx.
I would first like to express my sincere gratitude for the much needed help that I received while I was in the "in-patient" program, and the help I am now
receiving through the "out-patient" program.
During my "in-patient" stay, I shared a ... read more...
By: Tommy S.
Picture perfect marriage
"We had this picture-perfect marriage." Clint R.
It sure seemed that way to anyone who was looking. Pretty bride. Up and coming executive husband. Can't you just see the wedding pictures? Lots of smiles.
Can you hear the parents boasting? Lots of money got spent. Lots of booze flowed and there were frequent surreptitious ...
By: Michael L.
Stress at the Holidays
Stress at holidays is not unique to alcoholic/addicts! The difference is, if we drink/use, we DIE. Other people have the luxury of harboring resentments and
engaging in lifelong feuds with family and friends. We just don't.
I got out of VH during the week of Thanksgiving, 1999. Suddenly, I was expected to be at these family gatherings and ...
By: Wendy S.
The Coffee goes Cold
My sister called last night from St. Louis, Missouri. It seems another friend of ours has died at the hands of this terrible disease. He was found in his
basement swinging from a rope that John Barleycorn had carefully placed around his neck. When she told me the sad news my only comment was, "This @#$*&
disease got another ... read more...
By: David W.
Lost and Found
Written by Roy F.
In all my life, I never dreamed that one day I'd end up in rehab for alcoholism. My mom and dad didn't drink. There was alcoholism on my mom's side of the
family, but that was just because those people were "far from Jesus" and if they'd just get saved, their alcohol problem would be ...
By: Roy F.
A Plan Just For Me
Well, my first full year of continuous sobriety is now behind me and what a year it was. The weeks leading up to my first "re-birth" day and those that followed
were cause for considerably more reflection on my life than usual. Specifically, 1) what it was like, 2) what happened and 3) what it is like ...
My Journey Begins With Recovery
As a using addict, despair was my relentless companion. It colored my every waking moment. Despair and depression was born within my experience in addiction:
No matter what measures I tried to make my life better, I slid ever deeper into powerlessness and unmanageability within my life.
Attempts I ... read more...
By: Ed B.
Willingness has made me grateful.
My name is Jaime B and I went to Cushing Valley Hope Treatment Center. I went to treatment on my own. I had been using Meth for 11 years when I entered.
I first tried Meth when I was 15 and love it right away. It gave me everything I didn't have: Confidence, Self-Esteem,and made me come out of my shell. When
I first started, I snorted it, then ... read more...
By: Jaime B.
Everything must either change or die, including me. It seems like most people resist and fear change; perhaps I do more than others. I seem to remember the
"good old days" with fond nostalgia, when life was simpler and I was younger. So many of my friends and dreams had not yet died; so many disappointments had not
yet made me feel old and ... read more...
By: Ed B
Harmony Active alcoholism creates chaos and disharmony within oneself and with others. "Our real purpose is to fit ourselves to be of maximum service to God
and the people about us." (BB p. 77) Many of life's difficulties are the direct result of disharmony with the Spirit of the Universe and with other people.
"Courtesy, kindness, justice and ... read more...
By: Dick N.
A Second Chance
What a great opportunity to share personal experiences of recovery. I will be brief if I can be. LOL (Laugh out loud)!
I know I feel I have had a second chance in life since my experience at Chandler Valley Hope. Recovery for me was letting go of running the show and let people
in to know who I really am. While I was at Chandler Valley ... read more...
By: Vickie St.
From Despair to Hope & Freedom
Living in active addiction for the last 10 years had turned me into a very cold, dark and lonely person. Life was full of pain and suffering that had grown
into a strong sense of self hatred. Living with such emotions had taken its final toll on me in December of 2006. I could no longer hide from the person I had
become. Drinking and drugging ... read more...
By: Matthew E
Something Must Be Going On
Something Must Be Going On.
I get up in the morning.. and I am excited to start the day
Brand new dreams fill my head
With no plans of my own, God unfolds the day
I no longer allow fear to steal my heart and scare me with dread
These new dreams have been so far away
I could never believe in a million years
Something so ... read more...
By: Lorna Rae S.
A new miracle daily
"In what direction after Chandler Valley Hope has your life taken"?? My name is Jim and I am a recovering alcoholic. My answer if asked would be to say
"I am experiencing a new miracle daily". 98 days sober now. I have no desire any longer to drink and pray I will always feel this way knowing that at any time
I could fail. I am74 years old and ... read more...
By: Jim G.
Celebrating 20 years sober
Just a note to let you know that come this Friday March 30th I will celebrate my anniversary from Atchison! My name is Ed L. and at the time I was living and
working in Chicago, however over these 20 years there have been some changes. I'm now living in my home town of Pittsburgh, Pa. I remember my days at Valley Hope
as if they were ... read more...
By: Ed L.
Gratitude and Grace
I was at Valley Hope in July, 2004. I had just been fired from a job in Garden City and my life was in shambles. I decided to "take the cure" on my way back home
in Ohio. I'm grateful that I have been sober since my second day at Valley Hope, July 3, 2004. The Valley Hope staff felt that I was too high on sobriety and
that I might relapse. ... read more...
By: Bill C.
Faith in a Higher Power
I left Valley Hope O'Neill two and half years ago. When I left I was going to court for my third DWI. I knew that I had a tough road ahead of me. I knew my
chances for staying sober were slim. I was right. I began drinking my first week out of treatment. I started right were I left off. I started having seizures
and when I wasn't ... read more...
By: Chris S
Suggestions changed my life
My name is Troy and I was a patient at Parker Valley Hope just last March. There are a lot of reasons that brought me there in the first place, but I would
like to share my experience, strength, and hope thus far. I was never the type of person that was likely to get sober, as a matter a fact, I was pretty sure
that I was going to be a drunk my ... read more...
By: Troy E
Grateful for the Boss
Although I understand and respect that anonymity is important for a lot of us, I was blessed with an employer who was very supportive in my recovery. As long
as I was an honest and reasonable with my requests to be off work for recovery-related events, he was always willing and happy to allow me the time away from work.
My time away from work ... read more...
By: Pam S.
Keeping it simple
Dear Friends, As Dr. Bob layed there dying in his bed he said to Bill, "Let's not louse this thing up! Let's keep it simple!" This last month was a very
stressful one, but I kept it simple and I didn't have to drink! My girlfriend got pregnant, then 2 weeks later, she miscarried. She then left our house to go
to rehab for a pill ... read more...
Life is Good
I was a person going nowhere, I started out with just two beers. Then I wanted more. I wanted to escape, to have the feeling of "No Feeling." I started to
drink more and more. This just didn't happen over night. Years would go by and the drinking would be refined as I put it. Finally, I couldn't help it anymore
and wanted the feeling ... read more...
By: Wes L
The A.A. Miracle and Me
I came to Valley Hope in 1980, when my doctor had me on 4 different addictive prescription medications. I was 30 years old. I left, sober, but didn't stay
sober at all. One of my best friends at valley hope was a policeman. When he left with his 30 days, he drover his motorcycle off a cliff and died. When I left,
I tried to kill myself, ... read more...
By: Linda W.
An Unforgettable Summer
As an alumnus of Chandler Valley Hope often throughout the years something reminds me of things or events that took place while I was in treatment there.
My small group leader at the time was Laurie S., one of the things she told me was that: "When you are worthy of His Son ship you will be a father again."
My youngest son Mathew has been back ... read more...
By: Eldon L
Freedom from Bondage
Freedom from Bondage I found that besides the "pre-treatment" bondage of my alcoholism/addiction, there was the post-treatment "bondage" of
anxiety/depression produced from fears. How in the world are we supposed to do life without our old dependencies? My sponsor said "Put your left foot in front
of your right, keep moving, go to meetings, ... read more...
By: Scott B.
This summer I traveled to Washington to spend time with my brother Dan and his wife Sandy. Sandy's brain cancer had been in remission for several years,
but in late June her doctor's had sad news. The cancer was back and she was diagnosed with "many days to several weeks to live". She has always been a lover
of life. She ... read more...
By: Megan OConnor
Thank you Parker Valley Hope !
Thank God for Parker Valley Hope! As I approach my eighth sobriety anniversary, I have been thinking about the wonderful, caring people at PVH who looked past
my anger, and my "kiss my rear" attitude, and loved me when I couldn't love myself. I arrived at PVH in mid December of 1998, after spending five days in the El
Paso County Detox Unit, and ... read more...
By: Dick N
Finally the Easier and Softer Way
Finally the Easier and Softer Way: After 33 years of drinking and drugging I finally got it. I have been clean and sober now for two years. My second trip to
Norton Valley Hope was in a police car and left off at the front door. I had just received my second DUI in five days. Is this truly going to be my rock bottom?
Many thoughts are going ... read more...
By: Jeff L.
Coffee Cup a Lifesaver
Hi all, this is Jim P. and this is in regards to the Coffee Cup. Yes I would like to continue receiving the paper. I am not a subscriber to the Grapevine and
the Coffee Cup is my AA meeting by mail. It is great to have and read up and catch up on what is happening and what will be happening with Valley Hope and
recovery in general. I like reading ... read more...
By: Jim P.
Amy celebrates five years in recovery
It was April 15, 2001 when our family came together to hold an intervention for our daughter, Amy, hoping to convince her to get the help she obviously needed.
A few days later we arrived at Chandler Valley Hope, where she began treatment. She finished at parker Valley Hope and recently celebrated five years of sobriety.
She recently told me, ... read more...
By: Cheryl L.
Walk the Walk
His name is Bill. He has wild hair, wears a T-shirt with holes in it, jeans, and no shoes. This was literally his wardrobe for his entire four years of college.
He is brilliant. Kind of profound and very, very bright. He became a drunk while attending college.
Across the street from the campus is a well-dressed, very conservative ... read more...
By: Ben W.
How It Was
It was terrible! Dusty was drunk every other night. We were thousands and thousands of dollars in debt and he was in trouble with the law over misappropriation
of funds. I was a basket case and spent a month in a mental hospital. I couldn't find a good time to talk to him because he was always either drunk or hung-over.
I didn't even know him ... read more...
By: Roma J
My name is Julie H. and I will celebrate 8 years on July 5th. I arrived at Parker Valley Hope from detox at a local hospital. I remember insisting that I not be
taken home first because I knew the cycle would start all over again. My Mom and Dad had to bring my personal belongings to me later. That was ONE of my
jumping off points on the road to ... read more...
By: Julie H
6th and 1st Anniversaries
It was the year 2000. The world of computers didn't crash with the Y2K scare but my personal world crashed all around me. My husband of 21 years had passed
away in January after a long struggle with pain and addiction. My mother passed away 10 days after him from renal failure caused by the killer disease, diabetes.
My oldest son was 16 at the ... read more...
Carrying the Message
During my three years of recovery, my sponsor emphasized the importance of 12th step work in staying sober & clean.
The second part of his message, was that working with people already in recovery is important 12th step work. My 12th step work is done by sponsoring an
individual, going to many meetings, and continued involvement with Valley ... read more...
By: Scott B.
My name is Rochelle M. and I am an Alumni of Norton Valley Hope in Norton Kansas. I will celebrate my 17th year May 26th. I arrived at the Valley
right out of the Hospital. Two of my best friends, which one of them was my sponsor, called the cops on me as I was drinking and driving.
So I went home for I wouldn't get a DUI. My ... read more...
By: Rochelle M.
My name is Ed. L. and I am an Alumni of Valley Hope, Atchison, Kansas. I will celebrate my 19 year anniversary on March 30th. I arrived at Atchison very late
night on March 29th, and spent 30 days. In the beginning they were difficult, but by the time it came for me to fly back home to Chicago, I did not want to
leave, because of the ... read more...
By: Ed L.
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